It’s been an interesting week, spiritually. Last Wednesday was the monthly Pesdjentiu Dua (one of my favorites, and not just because Djehuty is associated with the moon) as well as Rekeh Wer (Great Festival). Now, there are always two different times during the week that I can attend the weekly fellowship/Duas – Wednesday evenings, and Friday afternoons. It’s been that way for as long as I can remember. Typically I prefer to attend the Wednesday evening grouping because the kids are in bed, and I can have my full attention on the event.
Wednesdays also happen to be a social night of sorts in one of the video gaming worlds that I associate with, and for the past month I’ve been bowing out of it because I preferred to attend the House events. Last week I told myself that I would join in on the gaming event, and simply wait until Friday to attend the Duas. However, about an hour before the chat was set to start, I began to feel weird. Anxious. I was fidgeting and I kept checking the clock, and most definitely wasn’t performing to my best in my gaming session. At about three minutes before the Dua was set to begin I finally gave up on gaming and succumbed to the odd shoving sensation I was feeling.
I can’t help but wonder if Someone was being insistent that I attend. I’m the first to say that at this point I don’t “hear” Netjer the same way that other people seem to, but often get random inspiration or feelings of agitation that come out of nowhere. The second I entered the chat room, an immense feeling of relief washed over me, and I really enjoyed being with everyone and celebrating the Dua. Interestingly enough, I had intended to attend the Friday session as well, but ended up being unexpectedly busy – another reason to believe that Someone was looking out for me.
I’ve been dreaming heavily lately. I’m usually the sort to have nightmares and wake up distressed, but lately I’ve been sleeping deeply and comfortably. I like to think it’s because my room has a better ambiance going on now with my shrine set up (though many recommend that you don’t keep your shrine in your room!) I’ve even been sleeping with my closet doors open, which is something I couldn’t do very well previously.
I recently dreamed that I was celebrating a Dua with people from the House, not online, but in person. We were all in a large circle, and everyone seemed very happy, both loud and quiet at the same time. The loudness I think was a feeling, as opposed to a sound. Like we were all full of joy and happiness that was so large that it felt loud, if that makes sense.
Then suddenly it was quiet, completely. And a strong voice called out Who will dance with Yinepu? We all stood around looking at each other, wondering who would step up and offer to dance with Him. The funny thing is that I’m sure if this had really happened, many people would be clamoring at such a chance, but in my dream, we all just stood there waiting, as if we all knew it was meant to be someone specific. After a few moments, someone stepped forward and I recognized her as being my friend Ekunyi from the House. I will dance with Him she said in a calm, clear voice, and then He was there, holding a hand out to her. They danced ballroom style, with all of us watching silently until I woke up to my alarm.
I don’t really know that it means anything, but I’ve never dreamed of Yinepu before, or for that matter, of Ekunyi, or anyone else from the House! It was an interesting dream, to say the least.
I also had a dream over the weekend that I was performing heka that at this point, I didn’t/don’t recognize. The dream was largely obscure, but I have a distinct memory of knowing that I was working from a Wiccan perspective. This one is pretty easy to interpret because I recently had one of my “Someone’s guiding my hand” moments and randomly discovered a book at the library when I wasn’t even looking. It’s called Inner Mysteries and is a (so far) pretty detailed book on Wicca and pagan practices in general. I’m reading it now, still going through the histories of Wicca and the word “witch,” and am finding it utterly fascinating. I’ve been giving some thought to adding some Wiccan flavor to my spiritual practices, and I don’t think that it’s any coincidence that this book found it’s way into my hands.